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Figures...Moving....Blarg

2008-06-10T23:50:41Z

Packing...Packing...Packing.
There's some figures I want to buy.
One's 94803u5ngdfngkndg expensive, and the other two are very cheap.
...
Yay.

I love Kid Icarus from Captain N.
He's adorable.

Not posting enough

2008-06-01T17:31:51Z

Ok, it's official.
I'm not posting on here enough, therefore I shall make it so I want to post more!
I'm going to re-do my page, and force myself to write in this at least once a week.

On a side note, I love pokemon more than anything again and my figurine collection is growing like nuts.

To be a princess is done

2008-03-31T00:34:59Z

Yayaya.

L is a princess
Uploaded by Exidous

I need sleep...

2008-03-14T23:14:57Z

I'm way too fucking tired.
I swear to god, I almost every 3rd word here, I'm either hitting capslock or typo-ing. It's that bad.

My mom recently started forcing me to sleep with her because she's a lazy fuck-tard who doesn't want to make my bed, because apparently...I can't make it myself. (I try. I can't do it properly, because I'm too fucking tired/weak to lift the 20-pound blanket I have to use.)
I've probably been getting 3 hours tops thanks to her.
Every fucking time I start falling sleep, she'll yell out something like "DON'T YOU PUT THAT THERE", fart (Yes. I said fart.), or roll over and smack my face.
Every. Fucking. Time.
I kid you not.
I've been left grouchy, overly emotional and anxiety ridden.
I thought things were bad before.

I was probably only getting 4 hours tops before. I couldn't fall asleep until midnight (Which I still can't), and thanks to a fucking alarm clock she bought me that lights the whole room up blue with the light on it (Which I can't turn off.).
I would then wake up at 4:30 in the morning.

I still fucking do.
Every. Single. Morning.

So every morning I've been grouchy. I can't help it really.
I have headaches, I'm dizzy, hungry (Yet I can barely eat.), confused...ect ect.
It doesn't help that my mom starts talking to the dog in a really annoying voice all, "Jennah's grouchy. OH YES SHE IS. SHE'S GROUCHY. WHAT A BITCH. <3"
Seriously. When you hear that all the fucking time....It drives you nuts.
Speaking of which, why talk to a dog like it's a human? It doesn't understand a word your saying, and when it's bothering other people in the room....
FUCK.

I've probably said fuck more times than I have in spoken words in this entry in my entire life.
(Grammer in that's so screwed up right now it's not funny eh?)

Anyways, I've been passing out when I've been getting home.
It doesn't help that I've been working every single day, and that I'll be working every single day this weekend.
I was like, "Oh. I can catch up this weekend. It'll be alright."
They want me in at 2:00pm on Saturday.
So much for catching up.
It takes me until around 2:00am to fall asleep on Fridays, and I usually need to sleep in till' around 3:00pm to feel like I've actually slept some.

I stayed home yesterday because I was so tired. I faked sickness. Said that I threw up. I also said I had a major anxiety attack after passing out on the couch, which is true.
I had sleep paralysis, about 4 times in my sleep (I was dreaming of it happening. and once when I was awake.
I kept dreaming so realistically, and of scary things of what would happen when I woke up on the couch.

I'm fucking crying in frustration right now.
I can't type properly, and I'm tired as fuck.

I got home to take a nap today. I fell asleep almost instantly and I swear to god, every 5 minutes the phone went off. I could not sleep at all. It was usually some asshole I didn't know, and had to get out of bed to check to see if it was somebody I knew.
My mom would then call and ramble on about useless things, that I can't even remember what they were. She'd then bitch at me to get up and do stuff.

It was like that yesterday too.
Every 5 minutes the phone would go off.
It was usually my mom, and she wouldn't...fucking...shut...up.
She knew I was trying to sleep too. She TOLD me to fucking sleep.

I really wish I could stay home from work, but I can't do that. That'd be stupid.
It's just going to be way too hard to be happy with customers. I usually end up getting assholes on nights where I get no sleep what-so-ever.
Seriously. They'll insult me on whatever they can find, call me a Dyke, be snooty ect ect.
I hate my job sometimes. It's so easy, but all I have to do is stand there or pace, doodle and rip tickets. Thats it. I don't get to talk to anybody, I don't get to do anything else...it's boring as fuck.
At least I get free popcorn and movies...but I never fucking see movies because I hate them.

I have to go to work now.
I wish I could get my eyes to stop watering up. Fuck.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.
MOAR FUCK.
>.>

Rawr.

2008-03-13T04:08:01Z

I don't post in here enough.

kamikun @ 2008-02-03T18:41:00

2008-02-04T01:42:55Z

It's been a while since I posted an entry. Oh well.

I got into Alternative. The students there are amazing, and I made friends on the first day.
They forced me to cosplay to school on Friday. I got A LOT of hugs and pictures.
I had homework for the first time in the year. It wasn't actually homework, but my mom made me do it anyways.

I'm really wanting L File No.15. I'm pretty sure thats the L photobook.
I'm buying it the moment I find it even though I'm saving up for Lolita clothes.

Blah.

2008-01-04T06:06:14Z

I got my visual kei clothes.
The pants fit, which is really good.
(Sorry Sara. xD)

I forgot about Christmas Death Note.
I feel bad.
I think it's too late to post my secret Santa thing...

I'm addicted to Gaia Online more than ever.

Jobu

2007-12-23T22:33:49Z

Job consultation today.
Lovely.

Mom said we'd go to chapters, and now she says she'll "try" to get ready to go.
Lovely.

RAWR. CHRISTMAS BREAK DESUUUUUUUUUU.

Cosplay Day on Tuesday was teh smex.
Srsly.
There was this chick, on he bus, and she was like "WTF" and she had an L bag.
Lolololo.

My eye's sore. I got soap in it.

The shirt I wanted from Refuse to be Usual sold out.
I guess I'll spend the 200 bucks I got on figurines.
I'll save the rest.

LA LA LA.

Birthdae Partay

2007-12-12T01:20:20Z

On the weekend I had my birthday party.
It was fun. I had around 10 kids over...
It was a bit much, but I was able to handle it.
I got lots of cool gifts including an Ipod from my mom.

Ipods are cool, but they're a pain in the ass.
Mine keeps scrolling on its own. It's weird and annoying.
Not to mention the song Das Omen and Mitternacht tend to be louder than everything else and they blow my ear drums out when they come on...and Baby's Tears is too quiet to hear with the sound lock I put on.
: |

I had a photo shoot on my birthday for Christmas Death Note.
It was fun.

The anime club at my school is trying to get one kid booted out as he pisses me off to the point I won't allow people to watch anything.
Every. Single. Time.
This was the first time I snapped though and wouldn't allow people to watch anything.
Thank goodness Mrs.Grahm wasn't there or she might have gotten a bit upset as it was Death Note.
(She really wants to see the anime but she doesn't have a computer/cable.)

I might be transferring schools to an arts high school.
(Even though I can't draw worth poop.)
Woot. Goodbye assholes.

kamikun @ 2007-12-02T20:52:00

2007-12-03T04:05:50Z

I really need to start posting more.
Lolz.

I went to a Lolita meetup last night.
And gosh darn, guess who I ran into.
Dani and mah Lighto from Animethon. (For craps sake I keep forgetting her name.)
I was like, "ASJRFOISDFJ OSDNGO SNONDSGONF OGFJGDS"
I seriously thought I'd never see those two again.
<3

I was really quiet at the dinner, but I turned into a really hyperactive freak after I met a fellow capslocker. (LOL DESU NOTO.)

Anyways, I need to re-style my L wig.
I need to cut it this time around aswell.
It's going to be hell. I'm probably not going to do it at all.
xD

My birthday party is next weekend.
I'm getting anxious as I STILL don't have my room back.
My mom says she'll help me move my stuff back in this week, but she said she'd do it this weekend and the weekend before.
I'm probably going to have to cancel it.
Fail.

My L Nendroid still hasn't come in the mail.
I'm getting anxious about that aswell as I've heard that sometimes the mail-man leaves the package outside your door if you don't answer it.
The kids in my neighborhood steal things all the time, so I'm really worried that it's come already and it got stolen.
>:

I heard from my dad that I WILL be getting my limited edition Death Note DVD.
Hellz ya.
I'll try to collect all the NA release figurines.
There's going to be less figurines in the NA releases though, which I'm highly dissapointed in.
I already have L cause I'm a nerd. I imported it from Japan desu.

I'm debating on if I should get a figurine of Rei from Evangelion or get the 2nd Death Note DVD limited edition.
I'm probably going to go for the DVD.
I'll buy figurines once I get a job.

I'm still trying to get back into roleplaying.
I've been trying to find a decent RP on Gaia, but sadly I havn't found one yet.
Oh well.

My grandma left.
She went back to newfoundland.
Oh wow.

I'm ending this now as I don't know what else to put.

kamikun @ 2007-11-25T21:46:00

2007-11-26T04:46:57Z

I got my hair cut.
I'm still called an emo fag though.

I have to do a picture for Christmas Death Note.
I'll be doing it on my birthday.

Braces.

2007-11-11T19:05:35Z

I got braces a few days ago.
I STILL can't eat because whenever I chew, it hurts my teeth/gums.
I'm stuck with yogurt and Kraft Dinner.
(Of which, there is none left.)
I've been living off of juice.
.______.
I should go make pasta, but nobody's home and I"m scared to use the stove.

My mom was being a total meanie-head (Lol. Meanie-Head) today.
We were supposed to go to the mall with our old friend Izzy.
However, she told me to just wear a pair of jeans and a shirt.

Sadly, it was warm outside and the only pair of jeans I have make me feel bad because they're too tight on my upper legs.
(I"m having self esteem issues big time, so I'd rather not wear them.)
I was going to wear my leggings, a skirt and a shirt.
My mom wouldn't let me.
She says it's "Weird".
I kept saying I wouldn't go if she wouldn't let me be myself, but again she said no.
I ended up refusing to go and I'm stuck at home, again, as usual.
I'm never going to get out of this fucking house and do anything fun.
I might as well just stop caring about my appearance if I can't even dress normally.
(I'm sorry mom, but I'm NOT dressing like a "prep" or an "emo". I get made fun of by these "preps" so I want nothing to do with them AT ALL. I don't want to look like them in the slightest. I don't want to dress like an emo either (Jeans and a shirt are "emo" with my hair.), as I'm already told to go kill myself.)
I fucking hate labels. I care too much about them.
I can't even be myself when I WANT to be either.
What a fucked up world this is.

It may not seem like much, but I'm pretty depressed right now.
Every. Single. Time.
I can't dress the way I want.
Why'd she buy these clothes in the first place if she didn't want me to wear them?
I might as well trash my interest of fashion now.
Oh well, what does that leave me with?
Anime.
Oh great, now I'm a fucking loser according to everybody.
Lovely. Just....Lovely.

A few days ago, I was going to post an entry about something good.
I've forgotten what I was going to write about.
Again, lovely.
I can never seem to remember the small happy things in life.
Hell, I keep forgetting what my friends look like because I don't see them for so long.

I get Monday off though.
To do nothing of course.
What's the point of these days off?
"Normal" kids just sit around all day doing drugs, or they go to malls and steal stuff.
I say we go to school every single day of the week. At least I would be doing something with my time.

Super.

2007-11-04T05:32:24Z

Life has been better recently.
Asshat got expelled.
He punched an autistic kid in the stomach and he's gone.
Woot.

My RAH figurines also came.
They're fun to play with.
I mean, a hell of a lot of fun to play with.
I just hope I don't break them while putting them into weird positions...

I've been thinking about getting back into role playing recently.
I used to do it a lot back when I was around 10.
I was always told I was really good for my age.
My writing skills are really dusty though, but I think that with practice I could do good.
Original charcters are hard for me though, as I've practically made a lot of them and they're all a part of stories that I've already planned.
(Luxaky would be able to be an OC anywhere though, but he's akward to play as because he cross-dresses and such.)

I shall name all my charcters because I'm bored and I've lost track of how many I have.

Artix T. Desinr (Changed from Draken as that's just lame.)
Miana Exiral
Roy A. Desinr
Zackary Exiral
Sain Exiral
Fiora Exiral
Kaid Isoka
Shinn Asakura
Sorren Asakura
Astros Asakura
Luxaky *last name not decided*
Cyrel
Cedric Iksen
Taro
Akira
Kai Setsuna
Shiro Makisen
Q (Yes. Q is a character.)
Issac Azuna
Serin Azuna
Ember Flarinz
Lance *Last name undecided*
Skye Eternia
Sakura *last name undecided*
Amarail
Andrew Diladin
Robatium
Narini
Seth Yoru
Jason *last name undecided*
Amilia *last name undecided*

That's all I can remember so far.
I know I have more minor ones, but...I just can't remember their names.

I've had some of these characters since I was around 8 or 9.
I think Zackary was the first.
He's changed a lot.
From just a sterotypical idiot knight guy, to a knight who after the first story ends becomes a rock star who's trying to help his friend with exetreme depression.

Fun. Lol.
I better get around to writing these stories down, even though they're supposed to be animated.
-_______-
I can dream right?

Oh well.

My mom made me write an essay on Death Note.
It was lol.

THE END

Dance

2007-10-28T19:52:59Z

I went to an Anime Dance last night.
I went as L of course. (What other costume do I have? None.)

It started out pretty good, but then my issues kicked in and I became depressed.
I got better.
20 minutes later, got depressed again.

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME BEING HAPPY OR SOMETHING BRAIN?

God.
I ended up leaving early because I was sick of the mood swings. (And I'm pretty sure my friends were sick of it as well.)

I got to see one of my friends from Animethon again.
Actually, I saw a few of them.

I couldn't dance.
I tried, and gave up.

I just felt like I didn't belong there.
Maybe it's because I'm not used to such large events or being surrounded by so many people at one time?

*sigh*

I'm so tired.
I slept in till like, 1:00pm but I'm still tired. Not to mention sore.

My wig is still alive, so I guess I will be cosplaying to school on Wensday.
Hopefully I don't get made fun of by the assholes in my class.

WON TON

2007-10-26T03:21:26Z

I got the day off school because of a doctors appointment.
I also got to eat really good won-ton soup.

I love won-ton soup.

I'm craving tempura.
A lot.

I want to write fanfiction, but MSWord stopped working.
It says the selection is locked...
Whatever that means...

Sleepover.

2007-10-07T01:07:50Z

I had a friend come over for a sleep over.
It's been so long since I've had that happen.
I'm happy.

I borrowed 3 volumes of Negima off her.
I need to read them.

Emo Otaku Entry

2007-09-15T03:59:43Z

School sucks.
Uniforms suck.
I can't express myself.
>.>

The guys in my class are so fucking negitive it isn't funny.
They're ALWAYS EVERY 5 FUCKING SECONDS SAYING, "That's gay"

For fucks sake. STFU.
I'm getting sick of it.
I've been miserable due to all the damn negitivity in that class-room.

Anyways, ther'es a teacher there that likes anime.
She's cool.
She says she wants hair like mine.

My RAH Death Note figures are having issues.
I found out mom "got rid of" her credit card.
So I'm not sure if the payment went through or not.
It says confirmed on the payment page of the website though, but I'm not sure.
I'm getting really freaked out about this as I spent $313.00 on them.
More money than I've spent on anything in my life.
I'm starting to get really depressed about the thought of losing that much money, because knowing my dad, he won't let my mom give me my money back.

I also need to order the L nendroid figure, but mom doesn't have her credit card and I have to talk to dad about that.
Good-bye nendroid.
>.>

Dad's such a cheapskate, he won't buy ANYTHING online.
(When everything I want (Clothes, Collectables, Music, EVERYTHING) you have to buy online.)
I want my mom to have her credit card back.
At least she'd let me pay her to get the stuff.

I've gotten quite miserable over the past few days.
Little things have gradually built it up.

My hair hasn't been able to be styled properly over the past month or so.
Theres major gaps in it and there's a huge one on the side every time I style it.
So I might get my hair cut like Miku's from Ancafe, but I highly doubt anybody will be able to cut it like that for me.

The negitivity in my class room.
Constantly being surrounded by people telling me to shut up, saying everything is gay every 5 seconds. (Not to mention them talking about how they got high the night before every morning.)

Lack of sleep.
I've been going to bed at 10:00 (When it's still hard for me to fall asleep) and I've been waking up at 5:00am.
I've been getting double vision on the bus and I keep almost passing out on it.
I'm lucky I hav'nt yet.

I STILL havn't gotten my old files back on the new computer.
So I'm getting bored.

OH, but I did make a new video.
But nobody in real life seems to care.
I worked my ass off on it too, and my mom was just, "Mhmm...that's nice."

She doesn't seem to care about anything I do anymore.
I'll draw something good (for my skills) and she usually doesn't even look at it and says "Yeah, that's nice."

What happened to the love eh?

I'm not bothering saving up for a lolita dress anymore.
I'll never get enough money for it, and I have to buy the one I want online.
Fucking dad.

Nobody seems to want to hire me either.
Srsly.
I had this pizza place call me in, I went in, they said they'd call me to tell me when I started...
They never called.

I feel so hated.

I need to find something to do.
Boredom is adding to my depression.

Oh well. I'll shut up.

kamikun @ 2007-09-03T20:58:00

2007-09-04T02:59:41Z

I got my new computer.
But I kinda killed the video card on it, so we ended up fixing it and then yeah...mom freaked out at me.
I'm not allowed to download ANYTHING anymore.
Oh joy.
What's the point of having a new one then?
I wasn't allowed to download anything onto this peice of crap.
>.>

Dead computer lives!

2007-08-25T20:14:55Z

Ahar har har.
My dad's computer died.
But he got it fixed.
Yay.

I forgot my DS at my friends boyfriends house.
I still got to get it back soon.

Karen's been spending the weekend with me seeing as my parents went to Montana.
Woot.
Stuff.

I'm starting to stock up on back to school supplies.
No back-to-school school shopping though.
Stupid private school.

:|

AnimeThon 14

2007-08-13T21:20:18Z

So like, I went to AnimeThon 14.
The ride there was long and boring, but I got to listen to some of my friend's music.
I ended up "forgetting" my phone charger at their house.
I also forgot my Nintendo DS.
) :

I was cosplaying L all three days.

On friday:
When I got to the entrace, I got glomped right away by a bunch of people.

I met a few friends (Miku and Lighto).

I got extremly depressed for some reason and ended up sititng there for a long time crying, but then Miku and Light came back and were like, "HIIIIIIII".
Light and I ended up taking photo's together.

My friend left me stranded at the convention place and I ended up having to stay with security for a while untill she came to get me.
I made a friend with teh Gin.

Anyways, saturday was better, but my memory sucks so I barely remember it.
People were asking to take my photo left and right, and they were also hugging me.
I ended up not finding a Light so I handcuffed myself and kept saying I suspected myelf.
Quite amuzing.

I ended up getting into the cosplay contest even though there were a few problems.
I sent my registation form in online, but I never got a reply.
So I ended up signing in at the place.
Then, at the start of the ordering, they never called me.
I still got in, but I ended up being number 97. (One of the last people.)
Then it turns out I was number 7 and they skipped me.
Wtf?

Anyways, while waiting...I saw PikminLink.
Omfg. I got to hug her.
Somebody with naruto gloves sliced her finger though, so it was an akward hug.

So, I went up on stage and performed.
Everybody laughed.
I swear I saw somebody with a cam-corder, so hopefully I find the video.
:3

So, after the contest I found out that I had won best junior performance.
Omfg.
I was shaking the whole time I was trying to get up there.
I was also really confused.
In the bag that I got was a trophy, a tek-dek, a Metropolis DVD, a cinderella (wtf?) mangathingy, ad's and a t-shirt for an anime I've never heard of before.
Win.

I bought a bunch of stuff.
A kon plushie, a su-su-seki keychain, 2 death note doujinshi (I has story about these), Kino no Tabi boxset, Invader Zim collectors box (I don't has invader zim DVD's though),.
There might be a few more things, but I forgot what they were.

One of the two Death Note doujinshi turned out to be yaoi.
I kinda freaked out.
I'm hiding it under my bed now.

I didn't have too much fun at the dance, but they played some of the songs I requested.
Yay Shining Collection and Whats Up People.
<3
'

On sunday,
My friend got into the Lolita fashion show.
She looked cute in the dress.
>3

I ended up not getting Mikus and Su-Su-Seki's email adresses (I was hanging out with them on saturday).
I hope I find them online or something.
D:

I stop typing now. I'm worried my dads computer will crash.

Murr

2007-08-09T17:40:50Z

Yesterday, we went out for dinner with my in-home therapist person.
It's the last time I'll see her I think.
We went to smugglers inn, which is like...really fancy.
They make good crab stuffed mushroom caps.
<3

Mom bought me some more eyeliner because the stuff she got me before didn't even go on.
D:
It's like, 28$ a stick though.
Hooolay.

I gotta finish packing to go over to my friends house.
I may decide to take the c-train up there since the suitcase/bookbag/bleach bag aren't as heavy as I thought they were.
If not, mom will drive me up there.

I don't have a group for Athon, so I guess I'll just have to walk around and try to find one.

My L wig looks really good in the front, but the sides and back are horrible.
D:
I wish I knew how to style wigs bettar.
Dx

Oh well, thats all.

Back from camping.

2007-08-06T22:58:25Z

God I hate camping.
It's boring.
There's nothing to do.
Little kids scream and throw things at you.

The only good part about the camping trip is that mom watched the first live action Death Note movie with me.
She said she liked it.
I can't wait to watch the next one with her.
>D

I've decided that I"m not cosplaying on friday at AnimeThon.
I'll probably have to fix my wig, so I'll just wait untill saturday morning to deal with it.

Here's the outfit I'll be wearing
(Scuze me bein ugleh lookin in this picture, no make-up/I was extremly bored.)

http://i187.photobucket.com/albums/x66/Luxaky/DSCF0036.jpg

I'm tired and bored right now.
I want my new computer so I can play some games or something.

Bleh.

2007-08-03T04:06:29Z

I dressed up kinda crazy today.
Lots of shirts and a skirt, with my green hat and hairclips on it.
I also wore a tie and my sparkly purple rope thing.

Mom kinda freaked when she saw me.

Dad took me to wal-mart too.
Mom wasn't gonna let me go dressed like this, but I convinced her to let me go.
I forgot what I told her though...

Dad got me some bear hair clips.
But one of the pink ones broke.
I'm wearing all of them along with my two hello kitty ones in my bangs right now.
It looks really weird.

I want to quest on Gaia, but I can't vend and cards isn't working for me at all.
I guess I'll be poor forever on that site.

Oh, I also ran out of eyeliner.
I ended up having to use good'ol eyeshadow to finish my left eye.
D:
Looks weird, but whatever.

We're going camping this weekend.
There's apparently going to be someone my age there, but I hate people my age.
I'm usually always dissed or ignored by them.
I seceretly think people think I'm a loser.
>.>

I feel like drawing, but I know it won't turn out good.
Sucks when people say you have talent when you actually don't.

I can't think of much else to say right now.

New icon

2007-07-31T22:03:03Z

I got a new userpic as you can most likely see.

I drew it mahself.

...
I want photoshop back.
I want to make a better looking userpic.
>.>

3 posts in one day.
Ahaha, oh wow.

I've been studying Japanese all day aswell.
I'm trying to memorize
"kookoosei"
Which means highschool student.

-__-
Why must my memory be so bad that I can only memorize one word a week?
Dx

Writer's Block: In The Money

2007-07-31T17:59:23Z

If you won $100 this afternoon, what would you do with it?

I would most likely save it for when I see something that I want.